I am LOST

First when I used to be in crowd, used to come out with rolling tears in and out.
Fear was to get lost in the crowd, not finding people those are my own around.
Without knowing what this feeling exactly is, tears just used to come heart out.
Then started living with this strange fear, now it was not every time as I have become used to of surroundings.
But sometimes used to come with instant force, whenever heart felt some changes around .
Again I craved for an embrace by loved ones, this time I may have started to know it’s a fear of being lost.
Lost due to lack in confidence, lack in talent, lost due to more of expectation, more of pressure.
With this feeling of lack n more I continued to live, overcoming this fear of being lost.
Accepted, every now n then it will happen and will have to be with it all through my life.
Suddenly something new emerged where I was lost in myself. Lost in my own thoughts, in my own words,
In love of someone whom I want to love, wait for something what I want to wait for,
Now there is no fear, to be lost is something that I want to be in my own world.

Day Dreaming is allowed....

Some dreams should be there, having those you feel happy today with no worries of their result in tomorrow.
Where not necessary to be sure on everything, permitting yourself to be confused and other to give you advise.
Where not necessary to be intellectual every time, behaving like a child and filling life with that innocent smile.
Some dreams should be there, coming true of those are all destined but still carrying those all through your life.
Where not necessary to be calculative every time, wishing and expecting for some present surprise.
Where not necessary to be practical every time, permitting yourself to live life in a daydreamer style.
Remember things those you can do today, you may not do tomorrow, some stupidity suits you today only ,which this world and you yourself will not permit you to do tomorrow.
Some Dreams should be there those may never realized but still those are there making you feel alive.
Where not necessary to be realistic every time, permitting yourself to live for that moment of life.