I am LOST

First when I used to be in crowd, used to come out with rolling tears in and out.
Fear was to get lost in the crowd, not finding people those are my own around.
Without knowing what this feeling exactly is, tears just used to come heart out.
Then started living with this strange fear, now it was not every time as I have become used to of surroundings.
But sometimes used to come with instant force, whenever heart felt some changes around .
Again I craved for an embrace by loved ones, this time I may have started to know it’s a fear of being lost.
Lost due to lack in confidence, lack in talent, lost due to more of expectation, more of pressure.
With this feeling of lack n more I continued to live, overcoming this fear of being lost.
Accepted, every now n then it will happen and will have to be with it all through my life.
Suddenly something new emerged where I was lost in myself. Lost in my own thoughts, in my own words,
In love of someone whom I want to love, wait for something what I want to wait for,
Now there is no fear, to be lost is something that I want to be in my own world.

Day Dreaming is allowed....

Some dreams should be there, having those you feel happy today with no worries of their result in tomorrow.
Where not necessary to be sure on everything, permitting yourself to be confused and other to give you advise.
Where not necessary to be intellectual every time, behaving like a child and filling life with that innocent smile.
Some dreams should be there, coming true of those are all destined but still carrying those all through your life.
Where not necessary to be calculative every time, wishing and expecting for some present surprise.
Where not necessary to be practical every time, permitting yourself to live life in a daydreamer style.
Remember things those you can do today, you may not do tomorrow, some stupidity suits you today only ,which this world and you yourself will not permit you to do tomorrow.
Some Dreams should be there those may never realized but still those are there making you feel alive.
Where not necessary to be realistic every time, permitting yourself to live for that moment of life.

Definition could be anything

A word could have several mean......
One says crazy can’t focus on achieving something, one says achievements come in account of crazies only.
Some associate independence is to be outside of boundaries, beyond the sight, beyond the responsibilities.
Some says these boundaries are drawn by you, with responsibilities u could be independent, and with no one around u could be hostage.
Many get furious on the context of being satisfied in life, say its full stop of success, life can’t proceed once you have become satisfied.
Many have aim of being satisfied in life, they associate it with present happiness and there is no regret has left behind.
Meanings are driven by mindset, as a drop can have several shape changes according to the serface, a word can have several mean, driven by your experiences and belief.

Its just matter of time

Happiness is within you, seeking it in others has got changed.
Had to left those were essential for life, value for things has got changed.
Here we are giving fight to ourselves not to this world, setting milestones has got changed.
All your deeds are in direction to make yourselves satisfied, illusion of giving others has got changed.
Things those are beyond our control, for them being apprehensive have got changed.
Being individual everyone needs space, Perspectives towards relationships has got changed.
Being with you, everyone has his own priorities; expectation with people has got changed.
Being with you no one is with you, it’s all walking alone, dependencies on people have got changed.
Sometimes being alone is required to explore yourself , attitude to take the things has got changed.
Nothing is wrong nothing is right every notion get changed, it’s just matter of time.